I want to thank you again for sending us another sunny day on your birthday. It always helps me get through the day and feel a little bit better. The day you were born, it was cloudy, rainy and cold. But every year since then you have given us cloudless days and the beautiful sun to shine down on us! We went on a family bike ride and picnic this morning. We always love our family time on your birthday and being outside to celebrate you!
It's been four years since I held you in my arms for that brief moment in time. It felt like nothing I had experienced before -- a perfect baby to bring me complete joy yet complete sadness at the same time. I will never forget that feeling, and so look forward to the day I can hold you again.
Your little sister Eva helped me bake your cake and she is very excited to celebrate. She's a master at singing happy birthday now. I bet your little brother Luke will gobble your cake down, too. Its been fun to watch them grow together this past year, and there are a lot of days I imagine you playing along right beside them. And my guess is you probably are! I do think it's pretty cool sometimes they have a little angel for a brother.
Your dad and I were just talking last night what it would be like to have our little four-year-old Jackson running around. We wonder what you would look like now, what your favorite toys would be and your favorite things are to do. We sure miss not knowing, but I do know you certainly would be beautiful.
Well, dearest one, just know you are always in my heart and never far away from me. I miss you like crazy!
Love,
