Happy Birthday, Jackson

Dear Jackson,

A year ago today I said hello and goodbye to you all within a 24 hour period. You were the most wonderful thing I ever held in my arms, and I'll never forget how that felt. I'll never forget how beautiful you were and how peaceful you looked. If I could, I would have held you forever. And there's not a day that goes by that I miss you any less.

It hurts beyond words how much your daddy and I wish you were here with us to celebrate. I wish I could see you get messy trying to eat some birthday cake. I wish I could watch you open presents and delight in new toys.

I want you to know Jackson, that we are celebrating your life and the happiness you brought us when you were with us. I'll never forget how it felt to you have you kicking around inside of me --- and sometimes it is those happy moments I think about that keep me going.

We will be eating birthday cake today, and as hard as it is, trying to have a fun day honoring you.

I do know this. I do know you are happy where you are, and I try to imagine the party I hope the angels are throwing for you today. Someday, you will have to tell me all about it.

So, to my beautiful boy, happy 1st birthday!

I love you,
Mom