Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Jackson's tree dedication, Mother's day

I apologize for the delay in posts, but all last week I was in Indianapolis/Louisville visiting family. It was so nice to see everyone, and I especially enjoyed the time I got to spend in Louisville with my brother, sister-in-law and my cute nephew Owen. Owen and Jackson were to only be about three months apart. Although it saddens me they cannot play together, I am so happy Owen is here, and he made his aunt feel very loved! We had a lot of fun going to the zoo, taking walks and all-around playing.

 Dinner downtown Louisville
(From left: Audrey, Owen, Nathan and me)

The trip also held something very special. On May 2, we dedicated a tree in memory of Jackson at my parents' and in-laws' church in Indianapolis. I was so impressed with all the family and friends who were willing to come out, stand in the rain (and mud!) and help us remember our precious son. Brent and I took a lot of time to plan the little ceremony, and I think it turned out quite well. Although Brent couldn't be there, he was able to record "Grace Like Rain" (the song we planned to use at Jackson's baptism) and "Lullaby" (the special song Brent wrote for Jackson after his death) and play them during the dedication. I think "Lullaby" definitely had a special impact on all who were there, and we were glad we got to share the special song. One of my favorite parts of the ceremony was when everyone mixed in some soil at the bottom of the tree to help it grow. I feel like everyone put a little bit of their love into the tree and showed their love for Jackson by doing that simple act. The tree has very quickly become something very special for us. I am excited to watch it grow strong. The tree is also near the church's school and playground, so children will pass it everyday. I wouldn't want it any other way. We are happy the tree is near many of our relatives so they can easily visit it as they wish.

 Listening to "Lullaby"
(From left: Me, Grandma Joyce, Grandpa Larry, Grandpa Dave, Grandma Joellen)

Part of the crowd

Top: Grandmas placing the plaque. Above: Jackson's plaque.

 The whole tree

Mixing nuturing soil into the tree

I also want to thank everyone who sent kind thoughts and prayers to us on Mother's Day. The day was obviously not what we were expecting it to be this year, and there were some emotional moments. However, Brent made it still very special for me. He made me blueberry waffles for breakfast (Yum!) and suprised me with a wonderful gift -- a beautiful mug with my favorite pictures of Jackson printed on it. We spent the afternoon on our boat relaxing, reading and enjoying each other's company, and ended the day by going out to dinner. Thanks again, husband, for being so wonderful! 

My Mother's Day gift

My second blanket is also coming along. Although I try to work on it a bit every day, I wish it would come together faster! I am getting anxious to finally be able to make my first donation, and after I finish this one, I hope to be able to do that. I guess I have to remember these things take time, and I do want it to turn out as nice as possible!